Wedding in Tuscany

This little patio held my youngest daughter and my new son as they married.
















This little patio was set amoungst nature that fed my heart and soul and strengthened my faith.

Breathing and drinking in the grace from these hills echoed the love we have for each other.

Memories of the weddings of my eldest daughter and new son and eldest son and new daughter filtered through the early afternoon mist. Settling amoungst the activities as they were lived they wove a vivid new tapestry of my growing family.

Each new addition to our family changes the landscape and so enriches our lives and the lives of all who touches us 

surface breaks

... as the hearts swells with Love there is an accompanying pulling of it's fiber - a drawing that threatens a breech - but welcome it none-the-less for it is only the surface that breaks leaving it's womb intact to receive and give Love ...

tell me please

i want to make ahome i want to be a home i want to live with someone i want to be loved i dont want to work outside but i must i have something that must be said i have something for others to hear so will hear some wont no need to say - what i believe is truth - all else is false - need to be sure it is truth - need to know - tell me please –

to ...

the feeling, thought
that i have nothing
to bring to do
value ...

the best seats in the house

there are times
no words can be spoken
for they fear they will drown
in the tears that will come

there are times
no words will be held back
despite fear they will drown
in the tears that will come

there were times
i sat still and listened
on the steps to the basement
for their joy and laughter

there were times
i sat still and listened
on the steps by their rooms
for the sounds of their dreams

there were times
i sat still and listened
on the steps of the porch
children ran up and down

there were times
we sat talking through tears
on these steps in our homes
as hearts broke in my arms

there were times
i sat alone sobbing
as these steps in our homes
held me close in their arms

there were times
in our lives together
these steps in our homes were
the best seats in the house

memories bubble up

in the eyes of my children today
echo their eyes of yesterdays
they do not know what my heart sees

in the words of my children today
echo their words of yesterdays
they do not know what my heart hears

in the lives of my children today
echo their lives of yesterdays
they do not know what my heart feels

my heart lives today with purpose
faith, hope and love bind together
a cord of strength, courage and wisdom

easy - difficult - easy - difficult

gotta say - doing what i had done since a kid came relatively easy
this post mom-on-the-job training is straining my brain :)

step out into

missing krista shines a light on how much i love each of my kids enjoyed being their mom and how blessed i am to be loved so much by them - love you all lots :) :) :) :)

They each in their turn stepped out into the rest of their lives
I now step out into the rest of my life

memories bubble up

there are many memories of the past that come and go on any given day
it might not surprise you, although it has surprised me, that these memories come faster and more frequent with the passing from one stage of life to another
it might be that i have spent many years absorbing experiences, feelings and circumstances and now they begin to bubble up for me to see then disapear as they light on the palm of my hand leaving the transparent residue in a circle - the image etched in my mind's eye where the heart alone ponders it's relevance for today ...

yesterday was friday - today is saturday

yesterday ... well that was friday but I thought it was saturday - turned into saturday long about 9:30 pm - not sure how but it did (why is a wholenother question ...) - maybe the SNL reference to will farrell on the john stewart show ... anyway, today the birds have heralded the dawning of this Saturday - I get to live - really live this last Saturday as an on-the-job-mom ... yoo-hoo - sort of - yeah ... sob ... yeah - yeah wins this time :) - it is still early morning - bright eyed and bushy tailed - alive today :)